A story tt has begun...

i m just a nobody !!!

2006-06-24T11:29:00.000+08:00

I keep wondering wat gg on with me ... a soulless person walking ard with just a body of his own ? maybe tt who i am... just a lifeless person call Delrick walking ard.. haha.. wat am i talking now.. nonsensical ? maybe yes maybe no... i am getting crazy le... another meaningless post of mine...

5 mth 14 days to ORD... sure am looking forward to it... but den .. wat will i be doing after i ord... working ? overseas for a holiday ? till july when i start studying at SIM... tt is if they accept mi ba... hope so .. but i guess shd not be a prob.... she got into SIM as well... i am afraid of seeing her in there... i better not be in e same course as her ba... it will be weird to see her... just like tt ba... y bother so much right... wait till e thing happen den i decide wat to do ba...

i am actually thinking whether to sign up for NIE course to be a teacher.. but i dun seem to passionate about it.. guess i shall try relief teaching for a while after i ORD before deciding to sign up or not.... i just wish to be financial stable and independent... even if i study in SIM, i wish to pay my way thru.. be it working or watever... e urge to be independent is there.. i no longer want to depend on my parents to pay my school fees....

annway.. i m gg taiwan again for training le.. somewhere ard sept to oct ba.. gd thing though.. i m gg back taiwan as instructor ... no longer as a trainee.. so e feeling is definitely different from last yr... will be looking forward to e trip.. coz got rest and recreational... where we get to spend 3 -4 days touring taiwan...of course shopping ard as well ba...

guess i shd take some time to see the doctor about my knee cap .. e pain is reallt killing me as times.. be it walking up e stairs or just a simple jog. or just simply walking ard... cant believe tt wat army has done to my knee cap.. i m just 20 lehz... yet i have this type of thing... it reallt vry bad.. tt why i am swimming more often... coz swimming actually help mi to recover from this injuries.... hope it will recover ba..

well well... maybe i will be blogging again like in another mth... sometimes i am just too lazy to do anything in this blog.. partly coz i dun know how to change e blog skin and setting ba... haha

wat my objective ???

2006-05-07T01:46:00.000+08:00

wat is my objective in life ? is it wasting time every weekend doing nth impt.. or just walk ard spore with no aim in mind.. i guess i feel empty ba... it high time i find something to do.... someting which i myself been trying to find out... meanwhile.. i shd start exercising more frequently.. esp more running to improve ippt timing.. and swimming to tone myself... shd increase to 30 or 40 laps e mext time i go ....
it also time to forget ab tt someone in mind.. put her aside ba.. no use thinking of someone when tt person dun even care... at least let me have those gd memories tt i had ... it gd enought already... just wait for her to contact mi ... even if she doesnt it all right de.. i will still pray tt she be successful in watever she do .. follow ur heart not ur mind....

on a lighter note of myself....

hmm.. it really feel gd when u know tt u had complete something .. I passed my driving at e 2nd attempt ... with all e hard work doing e driving lesson.. lucky me man... 11 was e failing point.. yet i got a 10 pts.. haha.. but it was also due to other factor as well.. like road conditions.. tester.. e jeep which i m driving.. etc etc... just glad tt i passed it... will be proceeding to auto jeep for familiarisation drive for 2 days be4 i m gg back to SMI again... shd be on wed or thur ba.. not bad not bad.. for those of my course mate who fail e 2nd attempt.. dun be disheartened.. ur turn will come soon.. dun worry ab it...

came back from a dinner celebration of my gd old friend teck... went marina bay for steamboat.. food was all right la... just tt we got a it too lucky to have a light drizzle while we were eating.. given e fact tt we were seating under no shelter at all.. new experience .. eating under the moonlight and stars.. in addition of e rain.. haha... know him like since sec 1 ... saME NPCC... same precision drill squad.. same CI course.. been 7 yr plus... quite long man... tt few gd old friend.. will always be ard ba.. hope we stay as friends till whenever we can ... newae, happy bdae ya, may ur wishes come true as well...

wondering.. speculating ..

2006-05-01T16:30:00.000+08:00

have you ever like someone yet she dun seem to care at all ? have you ever wonder what is the feeling of loving someone ? have you ever wondering wat hurt most ? is it saying something tt you think shd be said and yet regret saying it ? is it sth u wished u had not said it at all and yet wanted so much to said ? have you wondered what will happen if you had just keep ur mouth shut and not said anything ? would thing have turned out till like tt ? if only you insist to keep everything to urself, at least it still a friendship.

but on the contrary, if one keep everything to oneself, one would nv know wat would have happen ? maybe it something gd ? maybe it something unexpected ? maybe , maybe it just maybe. but the hope will be there.
whatever it may be, the choice is my to make, irregardless of wat ur decision might be.. i seem to be typing something tt seem so confusing right.. i do not know it myself

anyway.. i manage to pass my HSP and parking test.. but fail my driving test in the 1st attempt but it all right.. the 2nd attempt would be a breeze for mi.. shd have no big problem at all... i am looking forward to gg back to my unit man.. miss my instructor lifestyle, my bunk, etc etc.. haha rather weird also.. when i m in my unit, i actually want to get out for some courses..yet now i m missing my unit again. irony thing....

trying to find sth to do during my free time..maybe kayaking or wat.. otherwise i wld be wasting my time doing nth.. cant be spending my time walking ard city/orchard or wat.. muz do sth constructive... maybe giving tuition.. doing voluntary work or wat..

a beautiful week i suppose...

2006-04-23T13:20:00.000+08:00

i finally got hold of my lazy fingers to do all these typing after all weeks..maybe tt because i m quite bored and sianz now ba..which i m not so sure of myself also.

been raining quite often lately.. which is not so gd for mi. coz i love e sun alot man.. love swimming to bits.. but every weekend seem to be raining.. totally spoilt my mood for a nice swim.. hope i can still maintain my swimming std ba..

currently now on jeep driving course.. althought i find tt e whole course suck, with all those unlimited scolding by driving instructors n those delay in time.. i think it still ok with mi ba.. coz i live near there.. everyday just pick up my bicycle n cycle there.. it a form of sports i suppose.. seriously need to drive better .. with those clutch n gear control... hope to pass it in e 1st attempt ba .. just try even though i know my standard is not tt there yet.. i had already cleared my HSP liao.. so shd not be a problem ba. i realise i missed SMI days.. even though e admin sucks there.. i find tt e environment is very gd for mi.. haha.. looking forward to go back there after this driving course end...

what wld one do when they see someone they know.. i suppose they will go forward to say hi or sth.. but guess wat.. someone i saw yesterday totally avoided mi.. pretending tt i m not ard ... maybe tt person nv see mi at all but i was thinking how can tt be possible when i m actually walking in front of tt person. seeing tt the person is so persistence in avoiding mi, i did nth as well ba.. dun wan to make us feel so paiseh ba... just hope tt person dun avoid me le ba , i sincerely wish to be with friend n nth else le ba..

just pray for e weather to be better in all these mth .. n got to think of a present for my friend bdae... a friend of 7 yrs plus le lehz.. though he keep saying no.. i think we gotta do sth for him ba.. e least i can do as a gd old friend..

someday u will find out

2006-01-22T04:20:00.000+08:00

halo ! beginning of RCC course lo.. not yet condition to the training i suppose.. tt becoz i have slack far too long liao... it time to reming myeslf tt both combat & physical fitness muz be maintain at all time... it only now tt i truly experience wad e responsiblility of a CSM is like ... in e past it was still all rite coz i only relay msg.. but now i am e one giving instructions.. a bit not used to it yet.but slowly i will be familiar with it de..time will train a person and make him a better person so long as he is willing to learn.. 7 more weeks to go only... it can be done... esp when i been thru aslc.. take everything tt come as a form of training and to improvement my command and control skills... plus my communciation skills...

( well well.. finally tt someone is replying to me.. after MIA for so long.. i dun know wad to say to u either.. i hope to be e someone tt u can confide in whenever u need help... i will always be here for u .. irregardless of anything...
one more ting.love is something tt you cannot explain.. there is no reason to love someone. no one can say i love her becoz she is pretty,kind,outgoing,generous etc etc... if tt e case,den i suppose tt is no longer call love le.. it more of a motive based relationship rather den one which is based on love..
LOVE is something so special to each individual yet so complicated for anyone to understand..
tt my view on love..
i wish u all the best in ur interview for that job.. i sincerely hope u will get it if it is truly wat u wan...
from delrick.. to tt special someone )

A new yr.. let welcome 06

2006-01-02T19:07:00.000+08:00

new yr. new resolution .. everything to have a new start either. well. spore did welcome 2006 in with a big hoo-ha. , with a spectacular fireworks display in Esplanade . thought it lasted approximately 10 mins onli, it was more than sufficient.
was suppose to meet up with tt some1 to watch fireworks but she couldnt make it. i dun blame her at all, coz family bonding is very very impt de. so ended up watching with cun kel n his gf..
there were lots of ppl though, squeezing with one another.. so nx time gals go to this type of place, make sure ur guy friend accompay u .. or you will be taken advantage of.. so beware gals..
i haven make my resolutions yet or rather not yet finished writing ab it ..
i m still waiting for a reply from the someone.. but i roughly know wad is her reply le.. i am a bit sad but i sort of expected it . i just hope she will still see me as her friend. just like be4 can le.. tt all i ask for ...
meanwhile. happy new yr to everyone. may all ur resolutions come true.. n enjoy the yr 2006 !!!

Love poems tt sort of represent mi ? haha

2005-12-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

The Day I Found You

The day I found Love is
The day I found you...
That is why my heart is filled
with flame and joy that cannot be explained
No flame has ever burned brighter
Since the day I saw you...
I wish I could touch you and hold you
in my arms...
It is too late to stop my heart
from loving you
because the day I found you,
is the day I found... Love!

No matter what

There are certain kinds of love.
Some you think and some you know.
There is one kind of love, I know it's true.
The one where you love me and I love you.
This kind of love has a name.
It's not to bold, it's really kind of plain.
It's a love that only two people can share.
It's a difficult love, I'm sure your aware.
There are so many things you have to endure.
So many things that make you unsure.
Quite a few obstacles you may find.
you might find yourself wondering, "is this worth my time?"
This kind of love takes lots of patience.
It may also require a little bit of maintenance.
When you have doubt.
Think about how this love came about.
When all seems to fail and you want to give up.
Remember the name of this love is " No matter what."

i m bAck !!!

2005-12-08T12:02:00.000+08:00

i shall welcome myself back here.. blogging quite ma fan also .. which is why i seldom blog.. i prefer to write out my thought.. it has been a mth since i came back from taiwan.. so far everything been fine for mi.. got into a new unit (SMI). A recconaissance school.. do wat i also not sure, just waiting for the course to start tt all.. so now muz clear leave.. i actually got 11 days to clear man..but tt because i had been a trainee for e past yr..
my friend getting engage soon le.. but i tink it a bit too fast ba.. given tt we r still young. it seem like a very rush decision but nevertheless i support watever he is doing ba.. so long as they think it correct n they truly love each other.. best wishes to them..
relationship.. seem everyone is working towards one.. not to mention mi as well.. haha
i do have someone in mind. but i prefer us staying as friend first be4 really embarking on a relationship. must see fate .. whether i can be with her.. or maybe not.. haha..maybe
dun think so much..
i m looking forward to my recce course as well as another taiwan trip next yr.. cant believe it right.. go ximending.. shi lin.. wu fen pu .. taipei 101.. but den again , i got nth to buy over there.. but being there really give u a different feeling from e shopping centre in spore...
i will look forward to it.. and hope e yr ahead wld be good...

before i fly ....

2005-10-20T11:34:00.000+08:00

well.. book out on a wed nite.. cant believe it happening rite.. haha.. that because i m flying tml to taiwan for training le.. that e reason camp is so "good" to us . give us 2 day off to settle our stuff before flying..
cant believe i have come so far to this ... jus complete 22km run yesterday with mr mockery n mr blur guy.. ran with them thru out the whole journey... quite all right except that my lower body is full of pain n cramps.. i quite enjoy the pain though.. shd go for more running when i come back from taiwan...
first time gg overseas for such a long period of time.. wonder who will i miss back here.. maybe my family ba.. tt all .. coz i got no gf to miss wat.. haha... hmm.. maybe also meng teck n gang ba..
wonder how taiwan wld be like ? how their terrain is like compare to tekong terrain.. shd be higher mountain , higher noor, deeper valley, re-entrant.. hope to complete all those without any major problem... best is i can survive the whole thing w/o anything happening to me...
will look forward to \the 4 days of sight seeing in taiwan.. as well as to get stuff for my friends n family ba..
anyway gd day to everyone

days of my lives

2005-10-09T16:14:00.000+08:00

time is running out... they need a decision from mi by the next day... tossing around in bed.. i cant slp at all.. i had to make up my mind ... a decision tt will determine where i will go ...
at last i made up my mind le... something tt i think i will be happy ab it... i guess so... maybe.. in e short run...
ha.. well.. well.. didnt update blog thru here.. coz always writing in my own note bk in camp.. hope can write more here as well... spend 2 sat with my friend respectively ( jc mate n my sec friend ) coz it my bdae wat.. just went to eat ...didnt have e moon to do other thing .. wish for a better yr ahead .. as well as gd live to all my friends around.. n yup.. a place in any of e 3 university in spore... dun think i m greedy ...
i m flying soon le.. gg taiwan for 3 weeks of training... if there is anything tt u guys wan mi to buy, do sms or call me yeah... i will be more than willing to do so.... will blog again when i come back ba...

while watching e kindred spirit at channel 8, e story ab e doctor shengxiao and jiaming really touches ppl heart.. really.. e type of love b/w them cant be describe by mere words alone..
didnt noe i also watch tis type of show ba...

down on luck ?

2005-09-18T14:55:00.000+08:00

hmm.. v v long since i enter into this page to write again.. but once again, my life is full of turbulence... many thing to ponder about as well to make decisions...
education or army.. this 2 word is more than sufficient to make me think n think n think till i am going crazy soon le... think think think...
wait wait wait.. tt wad i shd do ba ... like wat my friend say.. when the time come everything will be in place.. juz open ur heart n wait for whichever thing tt will happen ... shd i ? maybe i shd..

unlucky or just too lucky

2005-05-14T20:45:00.000+08:00

shd i say tt doing guard duty on 2 weekend within a span of 1 mth is a lucky ting ? lucky in sense tt i m chosen to be e one... hahax.. damn sianz la.. tml have to go back to serve guard duty.. while others r enjoying their precious bk out time... somemore guard com is who.. e stupid ass alvin... i hate him man.. always pin point mi at fault.. even though no mistake was done or wad... or when other ppl n mi do e same mistake.. i am being mark by him.. which i sth i dun like at all.. hope to be posted all after my bslc... anywhere but not in tekong ...

a boring sat ...

2005-04-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

haha.. book out day... a day where all NSF look forward to.. esp those in training sch... as usual.. i book out at 6 plus.. a time considered early by sispec standard.. we r like sold our life to army.. working up to 6 days a week.. damn them sia... really wonder they noe how a civilian lifefunction.... but anyway.. no choice.. die die oso have to complete e training phase.. juz hope it finishes fast...

oso dun noe wat happening to my knee cap.. painful for past few days.. ended up excuse status.. skip lots of section training.. haiz.. dun noe is gd or bad.. got lesser time to bond with my section mate..

feeling super super duper bored.. dun noe y also... maybe is stress syndrome or acting strange sydrome.. thinking of gg back camp tml make mi sianz sianz... but no choice... just looking forward to e 6th week short break.. hahax... though i gotta do some guard duty first..

this is life man... how i look forward to civilian life....

2005-04-10T16:35:00.000+08:00

Silently,
He smiles to himself,
As he thinks of her,
Sitting alone in her kitchen,
Sipping coffee.
She thinks of him too,
But little does he know it.
Shamefully,
Both pass each other every day,
Without passing on the knowledge,
Of their inwardly turned love.
Time and time again it happens,
For who has the courage to say it first,
Or do they just enjoy,
Their secret love affair

i have seen this poem somewhere... somehow... oso dun noe y i put this in.. maybe i m feeling lonely as well.. not becoz of having no rlp.. most of it is due to being too lonely in army ba.. oso dun noe y .. but glad tt i still have that few friends of mine.. haha.. esp those np ppl... meng teck man... always can count on him ... hahax.. hope i got e time to attend his campfire tingy.. plus some time so tt i can go back dmn to c my junior... hahax..

another phase

2005-03-27T18:34:00.000+08:00

hmm.. when was the last time i blog ? shd be ard 2-3 mths le ba.. bin busy with stuff as well as lazy to do any blogging ... much has change juz over this few mths... result.. army posting.. lifestyle.. many many thing..but nevertheless i m lucky coz i still got my family n gd friend to fall back upon.. esp 1 friend from army tt i have to mention... hahax.. hmm.. sorry man..n also thanx u for being my friend as well..

in SISPEC now le.. back to those boring training stuff to be a specialist.... juz hope time will pass by fast n i can be posted back to mainland ... so that i can have more time to myself for studies.. friend or anything i feel like doing.. yup....i m really looking forward to e end of BSLC..

tired.. yet happy

2005-02-06T15:40:00.000+08:00

hahax.. funny title.. but seriously.. i m tired coz i have completed field camp n sit test le over e past 2 weeks.. happy coz NEW YR is coming lo.. next tue is e reunion dinner.. kinda looking forward to this long break.. can take this time to cure my stupid cough.. n to c my wonderful friends of mine tt i miss out .. hahax..

quite some time since i blog. kinda find it sianz to blog nowadays.. tonite have to book in again lo.. feel quite sick but den cannot take MC la.. it not good de.. hahax.. coz i m a tough soldier .. hahax.. sit test is over lo.. suppose my chance of going sispec may be quite slim..coz i perform quite poorly during e test ba.. hahax..

eh. siao liao. dun noe wat i writing now also.. juz say happy new yr to everyone ba.. as well as happy valentine day to all couple.... poor mi have to stay in camp celebrate with all my boyfriend .. hahax..

A day back in mainland

2005-01-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

well.. guys.. i m back again after a busy schedule .. this time round.. i only got 1 day of break cox i m gg back tml as my field camp is on sat mrni. hahax. sort of looking forward n oso sianz of it.. hahax.. dun noe y. maybe coz i m falling sick soon. hahax..

well.. my gd frene in army.. may have some misunderstanding with mi ba.. after i read his blog a few min ago... but i tink we can sort it out by talking to each other n spending some quiet time .. well.. it true tt busy schedule make ppl change a bit.. to wat extent i also not sure at all.. hahax.. just wanna say tt anything can be sort out.. coz there is always a solution to every qsn....

well.. a qsn for my friend who juz ended their 2 weeks confinment.. is it nice ? hahax.. a stupid qsn indeed.. i suppose it dependent on each person view point..

well another ting.. gd luck to my friend who is finding love in e air.. i m happy for u all too... hope sth gd can turn out for u all.. hahax..

n to all army friend who is reading this.. gd luck for everything.., esp e coming field camp..

a New yr for everyone..

2005-01-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

a new Yr for everyone

2005-01-09T13:02:00.000+08:00

today is like the 9th jan.. but den i haven make any new yr resolution yet.. hahax.. nth much for mi also. coz i m in army le.. but juz hope i can get into specialists or OCS.. either 1 will do..

another impt ting will be to get a gd result for my A level .. hope e result wld be gd enough to get mi into spore uni.. prefer SMU business sch.. or mabye NUS arts & social science sch ba..
dun noe wat to do if my result is poor.. juz hope not.. coz i dun wish to repeat jc2 again or do some private uni..

hahax.. army though a bit sianz.. i quite enjoy it though.. learn many thing n make many new friends.. several unhappy thing happen over e week as well.. some politics playing la.. a bit ... dun noe how to describe oso..

i will be getting busy soon lo.. with all those army thingy coming up.. plus no weekend for us to enjoy.. so guys... if wanna contact mi.. do it thru hp ba.. i try my best to reply.. if my batt can last... hahax..

happy new yr man...

2004-12-31T22:28:00.000+08:00

today is e eve of upcomiong new yr , 2005... time pass very fast man.. hahax..

i got nth much to write oso.. today went out with friend to city area.. take a walk there only... originally got fireworks to see but den it was cancel due to e natural disaster...

thinking ab e disaster.. it really sad how e earthquake cause so many death.. 100,00 over ppl dead.. n still counting as well.. it really a heart wrencing moment for e ppl affected. hope they can overcome e difficulty as well..

well .. mi.. loads of ting to tink about.. loads of it.. both new n old ting.. really tire mi out...

gtg le.. need to do some IBM (individual body maintainence )

friends..

2004-12-26T15:31:00.000+08:00

To all my friend out there.. be it pri.. sec.. jc... npcc ppl.. senior.. junior.. everyone who noe mi... happy new yr in advance for yr 2005.. hope every1 can enjoy their life.. n may every1 who face challenges be able to buck up n stand up again .. nv give up.. coz tt wat life is all about.. hahax..

life like a bus journey.... there is no smooth ride either... ppl come n go at each stop... there is many thing for 1 to find out at each place.... many new thing to be unfold... n if e bus break down... all it need for it to run again is some repair..after which it will start running again le... journey u walk is determined by oneself.. dun let other ppl control it... hahax.. seem very difficult on wat i wrote..

on a lighter note.. sorry man to anyone who i hurt in anyway.. sorry.. real sorry... coz it time to say sorry... n hope everyone can 4get those unhappy stuff n proceed on with life...

to all my friend.. if i got e time.. will ask u guys out for outing de.. hahax.. coz my time is very precious...bye guys,

the day after xmas....

2004-12-26T15:00:00.001+08:00

today.. book in evening lehz.. hahax.. muz think in a positive manner... tt sth some1 taught mi de.. if u think positive .. all positive thing will come to u de.. n if u dun do anything tt is wrong .. no bad thing will come to u either.. hahax...

juz hope tis 2 yr of army life will pass by quickly.. juz in a wink of eye...

some1 ask mi i scare of my A level result notz.. i told them.. there was nth i cld do except to wait for e day when result is issued to us.. only den can i deicide to choose which route to take for my future... just like on a crossroad waiting to move into another lane.. just waiting for e traffic light to turn green be4 i can proceed.. otherwise i will be waiting by e red light.. same situation i m in now.. waiting for e green light be4 i can proceed on...

well.. thanx for my friend concern.. my hand is all rite le..shd be back fighting fit in a few days time .... n ya.. hope i wun fall sick anymore in tekong island.. e medical facilities there suck big time man.. i believe most army ppl agree with mi..

well den.. gd bye everyone.. i got to prepare my stuff le.. but i will be back de... as for mi.. dun worry.. be happy... n stay positive for everything.. hahax...

yeah man !!!

the day after xmas....

2004-12-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

BAcK from isolation...

2004-12-25T21:41:00.000+08:00

hahax.. well.. halo everyone... i m back ... from e 2 weeks confinment period in Tekong island.... smell e cool fresh air when i step back to spore island after e 2 weeks in training.. hahax.. i sound as if i just came back from another world.. hahax.. at a glance of tekong in e 1st day.. it really look like a resort island.. with so many building around.. esp beside e clear blue sea n white sand.. hahax.. but inside these building is all e training facilities n place for e training of soldier to be.. like mi.. hahax..

the 2 weeks really is a new experience... make many new friend.. n found many old friend also.. hahax.. n a close friend actually is at e same section as mi.. which is derrick.. a friend of many many yrs le.. hahax.. hope our friendship will get better.. well.. took some time to adjust myself into e army life n regimentation.. hahax.. bla bla bla.. many detail also.. lazy to say it all.. just that it make mi see things in new perspective also.. n learn many things... n thanx to NPCC cca.. it make mi easier to do things.. thanx man.. hahax..

1 thing though. i fell sick in there.. it was bad man.. cough.. sore throat.. ligament tear to my elbow... hahax.. but thank to friend in there.. i felt better le la.. but still need to take medication ..
thanx man to all my army friend..

yesterday book out for e 1st time.. went striaght hm to wash my clothes n stuff , plus for my family to see me.. hahax.. i miss my parent lotxa man when i was in there.. gd to see them again.. went relatives hse in e late afternoon for a xmas dinner. steamboat.. after which went central with some friend... for countdown.. got home quite late man.. ard 3 plus.. but i sleep ard 5 plus.. was thinking of many things.. many things....

many thing to think about.. many ,many things.. but i believe e journey of thinking will end as i reach e end of e road.. coz i promise i wun give up so easily de.. n i wun..

1 particular thing need more time though.. i suppose no one understand much also.. need much longer time..but nvm.. it all rite..

aiya. sun evening gg back tekong.. think of it a bit sianz also.. but e tot of coming back on wed or thur make mi smile also.. hahax. coz of new yr day.. plus my officer give us an additional day off.. gd for mi man.. heard from gim an got bbq.. hey.. do inform mi thru sms ab e detail if u do see this blog...can take this bbq to catch up with friend...looking forward to it man...

hahax.. well.. need to do my stuff also le.. so gd bye to all ladies n gentlemen... anything can sms mi de.. coz we r allow to use hp de.. hahax. gd nitex everyone.. merry xmas.. n a happy new yr for everyone.. may all turn out fine..

Last day in Mainland..

2004-12-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

halo ladies n gentlemen ... i m back.. hahax.. well, tonight is e last nite in mainland.. tml onward i will be gg to tekong for my ns le.. most prob will be there for the next 2 weeks.. hahax.. muz wish mi luck kehz.. hahax...

well.. this last few days had been quite gd.. spend my time packing my stuff n also walk around e orchard area... plus some chatting wif my friend.. hahax.. suppose i spend my time quite well ba.. i also dun noe..

hope.. something tt my close friend told mi to believe in.. ya.. i shd not give up any hope at all.. instead i shd be prepared to forge thru any hardship tt will be coming toward mi . hahax.. coz i always seem e happy go lucky type..but from now onward.. i shd work toward being a person with aims.. hahax.. and one who is not able to give up any hope at all..

hahax.. i shd end le ba.. no time for mi to write also.. muz do some last mintue checking of stuff again.. lest i miss out sth.. well.. wish mi luck ba in my Ns..

DAy,nite,mrni

2004-12-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

haha.. here i m ... writing my blog again,after a heavy meal at a lunch reception.. my aunt daughter getting married today... gosh.. she look gorgeous in wedding gown.. hahax.. ltr i m gg to Apollo Hotel to have e wedding dinner.. hahax..

Really wonder when i will get married .. hahax.. maybe no one wan mi also lehz. hahax.. let wait for fate to decide my future..

yesterday spend e nite at ivan hse watcing soccer.. his hse has become our fave haunt every sat for soccer match.. coz he got SCV ma.. hahax.. but i m gg army soon le so wun have much chance to watch with those guys liao.. hahax. was fooling around wif kel,ivan, yue cun.. play till so siao ... really had much fun.. but i shall not divulge e details le ba.. better keep it among ourselves.. it better also.. damn tired.. i slp ard 4 plus onli... sianz..

Em.. let mi count.. should be 4 more day ba.. be4 i gg army to be a soldier.. so these 4 days muz play like there is no tml le.. muz have lotza fun be4 gg in...

haiz.. still.. i cant seem to stop thinking about all my stuff..many thing ba.. my ex-gf, my friend n many more .. time is still wat i need for now...

A nite with somebody

2004-12-03T13:13:00.000+08:00

hahax.. tot yesterday wld be a super boring day.. but unexpectedly was quite all rite...went swimming at my cousin condo... hahax.. swam for 20 laps.. damn tiring after tt sia.. shd build up my stamina liao...

receive a sms from some1.. asking mi to come out .. to Suntec City... i oblige.. rushing madly home to change n den go out.. sad to say.. i waited ab 1 hrs plus outside e restaurant ... dun noe shd be happy or sad also.. hahax..

after meeting e person... went walking around suntec.. city link mall... orchard.. hahax.. it been ages since i spend y nite walking down e central area... we ended up eating at e make-shift food stall near somerset station.. i suppose i get it correctly....

erm.. let mi tink.. wat time did i reach hm ? ard 1 plus .. ya.. shd be tt.. wasnt wearing any watch or wat.. end up sleeping at 4 plus.. coz thinking of something.. or rather tinking of many thing

guess my hope of gg ubin cycle for e 1 last time is broken.. but nvm.. i shall go there when i can book out from my camp.. hahax..

sometime, when things are so near to u ... n when u tot u can reach out for it... suddenly.. it all gone with a blink of eye... hahax... e phrase, " so near yet so far" keep floating in my mind le..
i may be giving myself too much hope on someting.. but i tink i wun give up on it till e last moment.. i shall persist de ! even if i fail.. i noe i have try my best for it.. isnt tt wat life suppose to be.. never give up till u have try/...

boring day

2004-12-02T13:46:00.000+08:00

haiz.. i tink i haf no luck ba... or wat.. all my friend gone.. either busy or giving mi lame excuse .. hahax.. tink they have their own life also.. cant blame them... sianz... tot of watching "Alexandra" movie by myself.. but haiz.. dun wan ba.. i dun wan to be alone waching a 3 hrs movie.. will be siao de..

yesterday went to sentosa.. mi ivan n kelvin.. pitiful 3 of us.. originally there was many ppl... but some was busy or wat.. end up only 3 of us go.. nvm tt. it was quite fun there also la.. see e scenery.. e bikini babe.. n swim around lo... nth much also.. ya.. i was kena sun-burned.. dun noe y also..

....is my life tt bad be4 i enlist into ns... my friend say mabe it because i broke up with my galfriend le.. wat. post break-up blue ... hahax.. dun noe myself also.. it had been a rather bad week for mi.. hope nx week wld be better ba..

btw.. eddie.. e durian ting .. hahax. ya, was a joke la.. hope u n ga dun mind.. i sound rather convincing right.. tt time i did e same to my friend.. they actually believe it also.. hahax..

2004-11-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

haiz.. another day less for mi to enjoy this beautiful world .... yet i do not feel a thing.. i actually look forward for e days to pass by quickly.. so i can go in army asap.. am i siaoz ? hmm, i dunnoe myself... hah

some1 treated mi to lunch today.. hahax. at simei Han river.. damn full after having e buffet... after tt met ga.. eddie n went for a swim.. it quite fun to have them around.. thinking ab everthing .. hope we can still come out even if we r busy. rite ?

actually hope to go ubin to cycle on friday.. but cant find any1 to go.. last mintue got ppl say she cant go.. well, i dun blame her .. family more impt. seem to mi tt every1 is busy with their stuff..

really hope to meet all my friend be4 i go in army... hahax..

date:29/12/2004

2004-11-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

a boring day for mi...haiz.. is tt life just after my A level.. feeling so empty inside mi.. as if some1 took away something from mi... nvm ab tt.. hope e feeling will go away soon... soon i tink...

national service.. something every guys have to complete.. mi as well.. gg in on 10/12... though it early.. i dun mind it at all.. in fact, i look forward to it .. hope i can be posted to Officer CADet COurse.. n be a officer... at least wun waster my 2 yr life in NS .. as well to earn some $ for university education.. tt is if my A level result allow mi to do so.. hope.. hope...